Dear Lance,
Our relationship has been over for 8 months now and we haven't talked since November. Yet, here I am, still thinking about you everyday of my life. I tried reaching out to you and you obviously didn't want anything to do with me. I didn't even warrant a response. Nothing. Not a "leave me alone", "I'm not interested", not even a "fuck off". Just nothing.
You're still the only one I've ever wanted. The only one I can say I loved. To this day my heart still belongs to you and I haven't been whole in a very long time. There's no way we could ever erase what you did to me and maybe I didn't give you the second chance you deserved, which is why I'm not geting a second chance.
Either way I still dream of holding you in my arms. Every new date I go on I wish it was you. I can't drive on 694 without wishing I was driving to your apartment. Cub foods makes me think of the 45 minutes we spent arguing over macaroni and cheese. Every time I see an Acura I remember the smile on your face when you asked if I wanted to go for a midnight ride the day you bought yours. Ikea makes me wonder if that furniture I put together on our frist date is still holding up. Everywhere I look, everywhere I go, there you are. Only now you're just a memory growing fainter with time.
Yet, I know you don't want to have anything to do with me. You've let go and moved on and I'm the one left behind. I've never been able to let anyone else in like I did for you. I've never felt the feelings I did for you, both sorrow and joy. You truly had my heart Lance, but it's time. I need to let go once and for all. I need to say goodbye so that I can move on with my life and find someone. I need to be free.
You don't have Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, or even an email address that I know. Just your phone number and I've now deleted that from my phone. I have no way of contacting you. No way of holding on.
I can only hope you find the best Lance. I know you have a lot to give and someday you will make someone very happy. I'm just sorry I didn't see it earlier. I would've held on an not let go. You would've been mine.
Here's to a new life separate from each other unless fate brings us together again.
Goodbye, Lance.
Love forever and always,
-S
